Monday, June 14, 2004
2 weeks left in toronto. parents are still here. i love spending time with them but as a result no time to meet up with any of my buddies be they from school or the wunai gang. been learning a lot of stuff from mom that i missed out these last few years. hope it makes me a better person. that's prob the only direction i can go.. can't go any worse.. lol. had a dream last nite about my time back in high school. was so happy then with so much ahead of me... woke up a bit sad to find that it was all just a dream and the reality of the situation i'm in now. really unsure of what i'm gonna do after NS. i still have 2 plus yrs to decide... but time is slowly catching up with me.
i used to have a dream of being a pro footballer but i know that' down the drain for sure now. altho leon says he has a contact and may line me up for a semi-pro soccer team back in sg. that is no realistic long-term option tho. realistically i'd prob end up doing masters in international relations or start off as a teacher to get some teaching experience. my dad wants me to be a business man like him one day... i haven't ruled that out but it still seems so far away. not even sure where i'm gonna settle down next time. parents are thinking of moving here when they retire to become canadian PRs. i myself am not so sure. depends on so many factors... my future job... my future wife if i'm meant to have one... and my social circle as well. seems to be a lot of stuff in my mind yet for whatever i'm feeling surprisingly peaceful. apart from the fact that the LUCKY FRENCH beat poor england today in Euro 2004. guess it shows life isn't always fair. but still have to move on and accept things... go with the flow. to go with the flow and do what we can and change what we can. but what's beyond our control we must learn to accept graciously. i've known this for so long yet time and again i've failed to live up to it. guess it's about time i do that. alright.. off to watch DVD with mom and jie.
i used to have a dream of being a pro footballer but i know that' down the drain for sure now. altho leon says he has a contact and may line me up for a semi-pro soccer team back in sg. that is no realistic long-term option tho. realistically i'd prob end up doing masters in international relations or start off as a teacher to get some teaching experience. my dad wants me to be a business man like him one day... i haven't ruled that out but it still seems so far away. not even sure where i'm gonna settle down next time. parents are thinking of moving here when they retire to become canadian PRs. i myself am not so sure. depends on so many factors... my future job... my future wife if i'm meant to have one... and my social circle as well. seems to be a lot of stuff in my mind yet for whatever i'm feeling surprisingly peaceful. apart from the fact that the LUCKY FRENCH beat poor england today in Euro 2004. guess it shows life isn't always fair. but still have to move on and accept things... go with the flow. to go with the flow and do what we can and change what we can. but what's beyond our control we must learn to accept graciously. i've known this for so long yet time and again i've failed to live up to it. guess it's about time i do that. alright.. off to watch DVD with mom and jie.
yeongest 11:54 am