Monday, October 04, 2004
This has got to be one of the most miserable weekends. Not only did i hurt myself in soccer training yesterday, United also failed to beat a depleted Boro side, only managing a 1-1 draw at OT. Well, at least soccer wise it isn't all that great.
I also ended up doing some reflection over the last two days. I realized that i have either been too busy working or having fun over the last while to have thought about how i am actually living life. I found out that i can be a rather spiteful person afterall. I really hate people with big mouths full of insensitive and snide remarks. It doesn't matter whether they mean it or not, the fact is i seem to get bothered by these comments very easily. So much so that i can get very worked up or even have violent thoughts inside my head. Well fair enough at least now i control myself and don't act them out like i used to in sec school. But this still worries me, all the more so when i am reminded of the fact that we are supposed to do things with love in all our actions. (*Thanks Father Iggy!)
How is that possible i wonder, when sometimes someone says or does something out of spite for u that is clear for all to see? I mean i know NOT to react under provocation. But to go on treating that person with love? It's utter folly in my opinion. But what seems foolish to us is perhaps indeed wisdom in God's eyes? A colleague of mine told me sometime last week "there is no point getting worked up over small things that happen, since there are so many of them in life that if you did get mad on each occasion you would be a goner." :) How true. But then again she can be pretty worked up at times too.. hehe.
in other news, i got my new webcam this week. well actually it's not exactly a new webcam, more like new for me but was given to me by my bro-in-law. tried it out with some friends already, resolution seems fine. heh. so fun.. i don't wanna sound like some lamebrain bimbo who gets so excited over small things but hey! it's so cool! webcam baby! ok ok. what a loser...
i've also been bumping into a lot of my gal acquaintances here in sg (from ex-cat. classmates, church, neighbours, and beyond) the last couple of weeks. most of them i haven't seen for years, so it's been more or less a pleasant surprise for me on more than one occasion. and wow, they have changed A LOT-- quite a few of them have in fact become rather cute or hot. not that they were ugly or anything... :P but let's not get to the "superficial b**tard" side of john now shall we. i treat all my friends the same. or at least i try to. Certain circumstances really DO make it difficult for me. But i'll not stop trying. Just don't p*ss me off too much ;)
I also ended up doing some reflection over the last two days. I realized that i have either been too busy working or having fun over the last while to have thought about how i am actually living life. I found out that i can be a rather spiteful person afterall. I really hate people with big mouths full of insensitive and snide remarks. It doesn't matter whether they mean it or not, the fact is i seem to get bothered by these comments very easily. So much so that i can get very worked up or even have violent thoughts inside my head. Well fair enough at least now i control myself and don't act them out like i used to in sec school. But this still worries me, all the more so when i am reminded of the fact that we are supposed to do things with love in all our actions. (*Thanks Father Iggy!)
How is that possible i wonder, when sometimes someone says or does something out of spite for u that is clear for all to see? I mean i know NOT to react under provocation. But to go on treating that person with love? It's utter folly in my opinion. But what seems foolish to us is perhaps indeed wisdom in God's eyes? A colleague of mine told me sometime last week "there is no point getting worked up over small things that happen, since there are so many of them in life that if you did get mad on each occasion you would be a goner." :) How true. But then again she can be pretty worked up at times too.. hehe.
in other news, i got my new webcam this week. well actually it's not exactly a new webcam, more like new for me but was given to me by my bro-in-law. tried it out with some friends already, resolution seems fine. heh. so fun.. i don't wanna sound like some lamebrain bimbo who gets so excited over small things but hey! it's so cool! webcam baby! ok ok. what a loser...
i've also been bumping into a lot of my gal acquaintances here in sg (from ex-cat. classmates, church, neighbours, and beyond) the last couple of weeks. most of them i haven't seen for years, so it's been more or less a pleasant surprise for me on more than one occasion. and wow, they have changed A LOT-- quite a few of them have in fact become rather cute or hot. not that they were ugly or anything... :P but let's not get to the "superficial b**tard" side of john now shall we. i treat all my friends the same. or at least i try to. Certain circumstances really DO make it difficult for me. But i'll not stop trying. Just don't p*ss me off too much ;)
yeongest 3:31 pm