Saturday, July 22, 2006
I want to O-R-D. Four words that mean so much to all the NSFs throughout the history of Singaporean men since the army was formed. (fine so a while back it used to be R.O.D. rather than O.R.D., but it still equates to end of full-time army life).
I really don't know what it takes to maintain a positive attitude. Just when you think that not being scolded by your bosses will bring you happiness, you suddenly realize that having your bosses like you could sometime be even worse. Remember my big boss? CO of the battalion? well this past week i had a few brushes with "trouble" if you know what i mean, due to my newbie-ness as a dy S3. Firstly, the training programme schedule for the month of July apparently hadn't been signed yet, secondly, just yesterday, my CO called me while I was doing a site recce just to inform me that the Battalion workplan wasn't updated. Sloppy work on my part? perhaps. But then again my answer to his enquiries were honest and simple. "Sir, I have not received any updates regarding these events, that's why they are not reflected in the workplan."
Normally, these sort of answers coming from other ppl would warrant a scene not fit for the viewing of children under the age of 12. However, in this case, i was surprised to hear his reply. "oh really? hmmm ok. never mind later you just go and amend it when you find out." I was surprised to say the least. My S3 (immediate boss) must've seen the expression on my face though, because he asked me "eh why? what did he want?" I told him exactly what happened and he gave me a wry smile. "Aiyah, CO won't scold you one lah. He loves you..."
I didn't know how to react at this comment. However, I have heard from quite a substantial number of ppl that CO & S3 thinks rather highly of me, that is why I have gotten my new post as DyS3 in the first place. I dunno why but at that moment i felt like crying inside of me. I mean, don't get me wrong, i was nowhere near tears, but this part of me feels torn. On the one hand, i have succeeded in not having my two supposedly "fierce" and "terrifying" bosses scold me for the mistakes i make, but on the otherhand, the amount of sai kang and responsibility they throw my way sometimes makes it unbearable. So tell me ppl... how??
I really don't know what it takes to maintain a positive attitude. Just when you think that not being scolded by your bosses will bring you happiness, you suddenly realize that having your bosses like you could sometime be even worse. Remember my big boss? CO of the battalion? well this past week i had a few brushes with "trouble" if you know what i mean, due to my newbie-ness as a dy S3. Firstly, the training programme schedule for the month of July apparently hadn't been signed yet, secondly, just yesterday, my CO called me while I was doing a site recce just to inform me that the Battalion workplan wasn't updated. Sloppy work on my part? perhaps. But then again my answer to his enquiries were honest and simple. "Sir, I have not received any updates regarding these events, that's why they are not reflected in the workplan."
Normally, these sort of answers coming from other ppl would warrant a scene not fit for the viewing of children under the age of 12. However, in this case, i was surprised to hear his reply. "oh really? hmmm ok. never mind later you just go and amend it when you find out." I was surprised to say the least. My S3 (immediate boss) must've seen the expression on my face though, because he asked me "eh why? what did he want?" I told him exactly what happened and he gave me a wry smile. "Aiyah, CO won't scold you one lah. He loves you..."
I didn't know how to react at this comment. However, I have heard from quite a substantial number of ppl that CO & S3 thinks rather highly of me, that is why I have gotten my new post as DyS3 in the first place. I dunno why but at that moment i felt like crying inside of me. I mean, don't get me wrong, i was nowhere near tears, but this part of me feels torn. On the one hand, i have succeeded in not having my two supposedly "fierce" and "terrifying" bosses scold me for the mistakes i make, but on the otherhand, the amount of sai kang and responsibility they throw my way sometimes makes it unbearable. So tell me ppl... how??
yeongest 11:24 pm