Tuesday, August 15, 2006
NDP is finally over. Unlike what I had anticipated however, there is no sense of relief or comfort in that. In fact, I feel a sense of emptiness now that it is over. Also feel a tinge of sadness that the Stadium will be torn down in the next couple of months, especially after having been familiarized with it and its surrounding so well during the past 4-5 months.
Another thing i was wrong about is that I would be more free after this massive event. I am anything but that at the moment, with the IMF-WB coming up, we are in serious preparation for this even before NDP has ended.
Was recalled by my boss yesterday from my 2 days off. Felt very very low morale, but it is because he needed me to help him prepare for today's AOP to the commander of another unit which I shall not mention. Sometimes, I just feel that those who have worked the hardest and deserve a break the most do not get it. But then again, perhaps it is selfish to think that way. I sometimes also wonder about the huge huge difference between the men and us officers. It is not just simply about responsibility or initiative. There are also a lot of men who maintain a positive attitude and have tonnes of initiative. But somehow, things just don't seem the same.
Do I feel this way just because I am subjected to listening to my boss's verbal outburst (which should I say is never without the use of colourful language?) Or have to entertain him by laughing at his jokes even though they are not funny? Or breathing the second hand smoke that he gives me everytime i am around him so that i will die faster one day? I pray not. I really do not have the time to reflect on this, but when I do eventually, I have a strong gut feeling that these are all factors attributing to this current situation.
I really do not know what to say at the moment. Are entitlements something you should have? or something you only have on paper, but in reality you are not given?
Another thing i was wrong about is that I would be more free after this massive event. I am anything but that at the moment, with the IMF-WB coming up, we are in serious preparation for this even before NDP has ended.
Was recalled by my boss yesterday from my 2 days off. Felt very very low morale, but it is because he needed me to help him prepare for today's AOP to the commander of another unit which I shall not mention. Sometimes, I just feel that those who have worked the hardest and deserve a break the most do not get it. But then again, perhaps it is selfish to think that way. I sometimes also wonder about the huge huge difference between the men and us officers. It is not just simply about responsibility or initiative. There are also a lot of men who maintain a positive attitude and have tonnes of initiative. But somehow, things just don't seem the same.
Do I feel this way just because I am subjected to listening to my boss's verbal outburst (which should I say is never without the use of colourful language?) Or have to entertain him by laughing at his jokes even though they are not funny? Or breathing the second hand smoke that he gives me everytime i am around him so that i will die faster one day? I pray not. I really do not have the time to reflect on this, but when I do eventually, I have a strong gut feeling that these are all factors attributing to this current situation.
I really do not know what to say at the moment. Are entitlements something you should have? or something you only have on paper, but in reality you are not given?
yeongest 10:27 am